Spring is sprung

Posted by Anita on 03.21.07 11:25 AM

carrots (c)2007 AECHappy first day of spring!

This morning, I got a lovely email from a reader with whom I’ve been corresponding about the Black and Tan ice cream post: “I really love your blog,” he said, “I just wish you posted more often!”

And frankly, as I told him, I wish I did, too. I often look down the list of Recent Posts and see that lately there’s often just one entry between last week’s Drink of the Week and the next. Yikes…

I still love the blog — don’t think I’ve lost the urge to blather about food — but I’m sure it hasn’t escaped anyone’s notice that the posts slowed down dramatically when my dad got sick and I spent a lot of time away from San Francisco.

I was genuinely conflicted about taking our first-ever hiatus when Dad died in early February, but I honestly didn’t have the energy for anything at all but spending time with my family. Writing about anything light and entertaining just seemed so very pointless — callous, almost. And I knew, just knew, that everyone who mattered would understand.

It’s gotten better, and it’s getting better still, but this new part of my life called “Dad’s gone” is taking up more energy and time than I thought possible. Prepared as I was, I’m still caught off guard in ways that I never expected.

It’s not just all about grief. In case you’ve missed my constant gloating, we’ve also been remodeling our kitchen since the first of the year. Much as I had hoped otherwise, there’s just a lot less to write about when you’re cooking in a toaster oven. We’ve been eating out with alarming frequency, but we’ve had a solid string of truly disappointing dining-out experiences lately, and working up the energy to write not-positive restaurant posts is just to difficult to do very often, especially if you’re trying hard not to sound like a whiny, picky jerk. (That said, stay tuned for our New York City wrap-up, where I’ll bravely attempt exactly that.)

But, hey, it’s spring again, and I love hearing that at least one reader is anxious to read more. And I am itching to explore all the seasonal produce, tend to our edible garden as it creeps back to life, cook in our amazing new kitchen (any day now!), and begin to find a comfortable niche for my grief — a place that’s out of harm’s way, but still close by.

It may seem trite, but spring feels more than ever like a natural part of the cycle, a tangible — even edible — follow-through on nature’s promise of rebirth and renewal. Looking at it in that light, as daylight hours get longer and the sun brighter, I can’t imagine that I won’t be writing a lot more, and soon. Thanks for sticking with us through the dark days.

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7 Comments

Comment by Chubbypanda

*patpat*

Posted on 03.21.07 at 12:31PM

Comment by cookiecrumb

I knew I loved you. Now I know even more.

Posted on 03.21.07 at 2:47PM

Comment by Anita

Panda: Thanks, homes. I need all the *patpat* I can get :)

Cookie: The feeling is MUCHO, darlin’  — xoxox

Posted on 03.21.07 at 2:53PM

Comment by ilva

It takes time and it comes and goes. You’re always in my Bloglines and there you remain! A big hug.

Posted on 03.21.07 at 11:17PM

Comment by Laurie

I’m really looking forward to your farmers market posts with the arrival of spring. Matthew and I have been having a daily conversation that goes something like, “I wonder when the rhubarb will be here.” “Mmm, rhubarb…” [we both subside into a dreamy rhubarb-induced daze].

Posted on 03.22.07 at 5:01AM

Comment by Anita

Ilva: Thanks for the encouragement. I think of you and your dad a lot, these days. It sounds corny, but your writing and your beautiful photos give me a lot of strength.

Laurie: Rhubarb is one of those acquired tastes that I have never acquired. But I’m as goofy about plenty of things that other people find bizarre (like oddball citrus). :) I’m looking forward to baby artichokes, fava beans, pea vines, squash blossoms…

Posted on 03.22.07 at 8:16AM

Comment by miche

I can’t imagine what it’s been like for you. I was so sorry to read about the passing of your father. I have continued to read your blog, because like all the others, I ‘really love your blog’! I’m selfishly glad you haven’t decided to give it up. :)

Posted on 03.24.07 at 7:43AM

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